What I do want...
- a life with meaning to more people than just myself
- therefore sometimes people won't understand the decisions i make
- to be defined by where my heart and head is at
What I do not want..
- a job just for money
- to be judged if I have not lived out "the American dream"
- to fit in a niche where my identity becomes my position at work
I am frustrated right now by so many expectations and pressures that rest on me at this point in my life... However I am excited to do something with my life that I know will make some people uncomfortable. It's almost like I have a goal of making my life into something that's so different than the norm that it makes people uncomfortable. Obviously that is not my ultimate goal but I feel it would be a nice indication that I was doing something right. I'm in a mood where I would just like to be alone for a little bit. I am grateful because I am going to say good morning to the ocean tomorrow. We shall have a long chat before I turn around to say good afternoon to the rush of people and places and schedules and demands I call the norm. But in the mean time... I look forward to the ocean.
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